For someone who came up as a musician, working mostly in a collaborative environment, writing is a huge change in the way that I work. Usually there is a bass player or guitar player to lock in with, or a singer or keyboard player to contend with, but not when you are sitting behind a keyboard attempting to sting sentences and ideas together.
Writing is solitary. It is a blessing and a curse all at once. There’s no one to interact with creatively, until you have a manuscript done and show it to a trusted member of your inner circle. You have total freedom. That lack of structure certainly does not mesh well with all personality types. If you can’t sit down and put out 500 or 1,000 good words more or less at will, you are going to have a tough time producing anything of significance.
Even when the essay or opinion piece or book in this case is published….who the hell is reading it? You never know until someone sends a contact back to you in the form of a photo, or a text or a social media post that they picked up a copy. That is a good feeling.
Then the good feeling yields to worry. Worry that the work you have put into the project justifies that person’s time and investment.